bummed

So I am feeling really bummed right now, I don't want to be a complainer, But I just have to get it out there or I think I may burst.

R and I have been trying to get pregnant for about 6 months now and nothing. It is a bit frustrating due to the fact that we got pregnant while I was still on Birth Control pills with G. I was expecting it to happen quickly again I guess. I know it will happen in Heavenly Father's timing and not ours, but I am so stinkin baby hungry.

Before we decided to start trying I had been getting feelings that someone was missing. Not as instant like I had before getting pregnant with G. Both R and I felt (after lots and lots of prayer) that it was time to start trying again. We felt like this was a test of faith since we both didn't feel ready, and we knew that we still had (and still have) things to get done before we can welcome a new baby into our home. I know that since we felt that it was the right thing to do we will be provided for. I know this is giving us more time to get things taken care of, and help us be in a better financial shape for a new baby. Its given me time to be prepared emotionally for a new little one. I am so impatient though.

I am starting to hate Facebook because I am finding out that almost everyone is pregnant or having the cutest little babies, or at least it seems like everyone. I am so excited for all those friends because I know the joy that they are experiencing and wish them all the joy in the world. I can't help but be sad though....

I know we have been blessed with two beautiful children and I shouldn't be complaining. Especially since I know quite a few people who have been told they can't have children or have been trying for years and are taking all sorts of medications to help them to have just one. I feel even worse when I remember that I could have it worse.

Anyways I guess that is it. I need to just be patient, and place this one in Heavenly Father's hands.