Thankful for Tender Mercies

After a long rough day with children all I felt done. Done with kids. Done with housework that I can't get done. Done with fighting, screaming, yelling, hitting, and pushing. R was going to be late coming home from work. We were out of milk and all the easy dinners required it. I was in no mood to make a more complex meal, nor would the kids let me, I am sure. All I wanted to do was crawl into a hole and stay there until the kids grew up.

Don't get me wrong. I love them to death, and I am excited to watch them grow up, but this terrible twos thing is kicking my rear. Some days I just wish that we could skip this stage, especially since A is still in it (and getting worse by the day it seems), and G has just started it.

After too many close calls of being close to tears I was at my wits end. Then thankfully R called me to tell me he was on his way from work. Followed by more screaming and fighting children who didn't like the dinner that I was making them. I was so relieved to see R come through the door when he got home.

After talking for a few minutes R decided that I needed a chance to get out of the house. So I left to go get some milk. While at the grocery store I wandered around for a while... not a good thing for me to do while I am upset. I am a major emotional eater, and with trying to loose weight... well lets just say there are lots of things that tempted me. I was good though, I didn't put anything bad in the cart... until I called R and he asked for some Flamin' Hot Cheetos and some Ice Cream. Which I am sad to say I bought, for as I write this I am eating some of those yummy Cheetos with some sour cream and milk (so bad for me, I know, but at least I haven't touched the ice cream).

Leaving the store I was still feeling pretty frustrated. The fact that it was raining made me a bit happier (for those of you not in the area, that is a rare thing out here where I live during the summer). As I am driving home I see a near blinding light to my right. The Sun had come out from behind the clouds to make an amazing sunset. Then I look to my left and there is a beautiful rainbow. Above me it is raining, something that I love. And then to top it off there was a song that came on the radio, Just another day in paradise (or I think that is the name). All that added together started to make me cry yet again... for the umpteenth time today.

I honestly believe that it was a tender mercy that I was able to see those things, and then hear a song about how things can go wrong but how your life can be paradise despite it all. And who needs all those tempting foods when you can see a beautiful sight like that to make you feel better.

I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who sends me things, just as I need them to make my life brighter, even if for a second. Things like this let me know that I'm not alone, that I have someone who know exactly how I am feeling at the moment and knows exactly how to make me feel better.